Isaiah 43:19 “For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun!”
Today is the beginning. It is the beginning of a new school, a new season and a new life.
Over the past month, God was doing deep work in me preparing me for this day. Many distractions came up trying to take me off of the journey set before me. I had choices to make that were not the easiest. Even up until last night I was asked to be the leader of many things. However, God gave me a word to be in a season of rest from too many people to ignore it. I had to set aside my desire to serve and to lead. I just want to help. But God told me no. I know that sounds crazy but it is what He wants for me this year.
I am in a new season.
As I think about today so many thoughts flood my mind of the past 25 years of my life leading up to this point. It is the day that I have dreamed about since I was 4 years old. I am going to ministry school! My life has taken many twists and turns to get me here and I would not trade on second of it! I am in the best place of my life spiritually, emotionally and physically than ever before. Today marks the first day of the rest of my life and the last day of being the Holly of yesterday.
I am in a new season.
I have no idea what lies ahead. It is scary and at times unnerving. I do not hold the reigns to my life any longer, Papa does. Heidi Baker preached on Sunday and gave a vision that she had over our generation. We are sitting two to a chariot. Jesus is holding the reigns to the horses with his left hand. We are holding a sword. He said, “It takes two hands to hold the sword. Release control!” In other words, let Him have the reigns. When He gets the reigns He can send us out to do greater things than we could ever imagine! I am letting go of control on a daily basis and doing the one thing set before me, hold the sword with two hands.
I am in a new season.
Words continue to flood in from mentors, revival pastors, interns, and friends. “You are to rest in this season. When you get out of this season you will know how to run 100 miles an hour yet still be operating out of a place of rest.” “It is your season to be served.” “It is your season to receive.” I have never been able to receive well. I love to give. However, God is teaching me that if I do not learn how to receive, I will have nothing left to give. I am to be a conduit of His gifts, His goodness, His love. It should flow to me, through me, and to and through others. I am to rest and receive.
I am in a new season.
School starts in just under two hours. I am about to be with 960 other people just like me. People who believe the same things as me. People who are running after God just like me. People who are passionate and here for the “one thing” which is God’s presence! I have friends that are like me, I have friends that challenge me, I have friends that are pursuing God alongside me, I have friends.
I am in a new season.
God is teaching me how to receive love from Him and others. He is teaching me how much He loves me. Everyday He blows my theology, my mind and my previous experiences with His overwhelming love. It is hard to take without wondering when it is all going to fall apart. But it just keeps coming, it keeps getting better. He IS THAT Good! He is teaching me each day to trust Him. I was given $200 to pay for new tires for my car. I was given the best Revival Group pastor I could have asked for. I was given the best roommates I could have asked for. I was given the best landlords, friends, mentors I couldn’t have even dreamed of receiving. I have had a summer of learning to jump off cliffs, rope swing, wakeboard, rock climb and dance salsa and west coast swing. I have taken risk in the natural all summer long, and God is asking me to take risk and try new things in the spiritual realm. He is asking me to rest, receive, experiment, explore, live in abundant favor and have childlike faith.
I am in a new season.
The sentence on the top of my 1st Year BSSM binder reads:
“Believers who are focused and passionate, willing to pay any price to live in community, purity and power because they are loved by God and love Him, Whose manifest presence transforms lives and cultures.”
That is who we are as BSSM students. That is our motto, that is our call, that is our lifestyle.
I am ready to jump! I am ready to fly! I am ready to soar!
I AM IN A NEW SEASON!!!